Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Sunday, December 7, 2014

It rained in Southern California last week...




Rain Comes

In the rains, night streets glisten
like a thousand tear-glazed eyes slick
with pain.
A drought tempered,
not quenched.

A dark-haired man sprawls propped
against a lamp post, yellow light misting
over him in the dark;
his khaki pants damp from wicking the wet sidewalk;
his button-down brown shirt damp from his tears;
his head angled askew as he stares
into electronic memories
of her.
His face is illuminated a ghoulish blue;
his thumb flicking back and forth
back and forth
winding a watch that bears no hands,
yet holds an eternity
of them.

Cars wash by driving
through his anguish.
A jukebox in the dive bar across the street plays
a ballad he will never hear.
Rain and tears blend and flow down
the gutters of his face
erode him
until the flotsam of his soul
with oil and mud and life
drain into sewers toward the sea.


Friday, November 21, 2014

Love's many forms

A whimsical poem, and something more....

Rickety Table

Rickety table
a faithful friend,
always last to be chosen
by others,
but always there for me.
Your wobbly round top, atop
an unsteady post, teetering.
Your cherry wood chipped
stained finish flaking
coffee-stained rings replace.
Your imperfections allow me to love
what would otherwise be
an easy job.




Untitled

The woman who read books turned upside down.
The woman who played scrabble outside the borders
            because completing a fun word is more important.
The woman who taught herself to throw knives.
The woman whose voice brings me to tears.
The woman who thought my humor was hilarious.
The woman who wore fairy wings and flew at me.
The woman who spoke to me in fluent Elvish.
The woman who helped me understand advanced electrodynamics.
The woman whose leg was shattered by an improvised explosive device
            and said to me the scars were nothing.






Requiescat (circa 1997)

I starve myself
and what a blissful fast it is.
I drink not your dark eyes
nor taste such delicate lips.
( do they melt warm on mine like caramel? )
It is for absolution I pay,
            and pray in my solitude--
waiting.
            Your gaze the wine,
            your touch the bread.

What dark sin have I
that I should kneel so,
bowing before Athena.
O, goddess of Wisdom and War, I feel your conflict--
take my anguish, take my head!
            relieve me of my famished pang.

I pace and wear a canyon in the Earth,
my screams of hunger
echo in the void.
Why not eat then as to die?
Because my death
            or desire
will only happen once;
            Rather I await the fruit of Ambrosia
            than the flower of the Bittersweet.




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Saturday, January 25, 2014

Gratitude

No preamble this week...


AFFECTION

It was the only time I saw them kiss;
an unrequited kiss farewell.

They never displayed their affection in private,
so the kiss in church stopped my breath.

So intimate, so quiet and tender;
my father lay there accepting, forgiving.

But Mom only wept as she bent over him;
he unable to respond, his lips sown shut.





Atop the Cold and Blustering Tower

The surgeon knows whether a life is saved.
A child of five could hear the heart beat.

So how do you know when you've saved a life?

Mind sparks, neurons fire within a cave of bone,
but no light illuminates the darkness.
The blade of insight and intellect is your scalpel,
and with it you enter the hollows of my eyes,
slicing my mind open ever so gently,
ever so cautiously
with questioning words
peeling back the fatty layers of confusion,
probing the cancer of destroyed Self,
until you become me
and stand on the balcony of my soul
gazing out across the demon-haunted pits,
the angel-hallowed halls
embracing all
equally.

Yet for this operation, I am neither sedated nor numb.
For I too am an instrument of yours...
an instrument in my own healing, my own survival, my own resurrection.
You follow me closely, carefully suturing the wounds of childhood,
of life,
with encouragement, patience, understanding
cutting away infected motivations
amputating the extremes of paralyzing anxiety
until we are out in the world
talking comfortably over a cup of coffee.

But who heals your scars?
Who quiets your fear?
There is no heartbeat calling from afar
telling you everything is fine.
So how do you know when you've saved my life?
You know when I hand you this poem,
You know that on a dark winter's night
on the Tower eaves,
I thought of you
and stepped away from the edge.